Current mood:gloomy

The world is such a big place, so barren for so many people. Every day, every where I go, I close the doors behind me and so often lock them. That sort of makes me think, am I locking the world of possibilities out of my life? Is this really more than just locking physical doors behind me, is it more like a reflection of my personality, where I am afraid to let people in. I know I am afraid to let people in, but that is just because I am cautious, maybe too much so, what am I missing because I am so private. I know I am an intelligent person, and when people get to know me, I have yet to find someone who actually does not like me. I don’t know, I am a big nerd, but so many other things. Maybe I am just broken, beyond help. So be it.